I do not mind if it is only for today, or if it is only for now.
But now, at the end of the list, I find the sweetest punctuation to the day. I breathe out, I am early, I didn’t fuck this up, the fridge is full of food, I’ve found the sheets for the bed. I know what tomorrow brings, I think that I can handle it and even if I can’t, I can fall down, fall down again, down, down to where words are only one syllable and hearts beat regularly. Fuck the sweet, introspective shit.
I’m having a glass of wine, a cigarette and eventually bed.